My Beloved

To me the greatest miracles are those that change our way of thinking. They may not appear to be the grandest miracles but they are the most profound. The hardest miracle I ever had to believe was the one that challenged me to think in a new way. The Lord revealed to me in 1988 that he was in love with me. Deeply, profoundly, and romantically in love with me. And I fought with him on this new revelation he was giving me.

Both the Lord and I knew how deeply I was in love with him. In 1978 from the first time I experienced his presence I fell madly and deeply in love with him. I thought it was silly how I felt and I was quite embarrassed to even speak of it in front of the Lord. But the Lord saw what was in my heart and he wanted it for himself.

I had never heard of union, mystical marriage or even Christian mysticism. I didn't know such things even existed when this revelation came to me. My first thought that it was Satan and my second thought was that it was me. But the Lord pursued me and explained to me that this was his will for me.

This miracle of God becoming my beloved has not ended. Though it increases and decreases throughout my life it has not stopped or disappeared. It is a for taste of heaven and the kingdom on earth. By his holy spirit I have touched God, felt his embrace and been kissed by my creator. I have tasted heavenly fruits and understood eternity.

For a child who was denied love for most of her life this miracle has been the most profound. No other miracle in my life has granted me as much honor from the hand of God then this one. It is the reason why this website exists, it is the burning fire that consumes me.

It is the reason why I witness and it is the message I proclaim for the Lord. In my heart it is the greatest thing I have ever experienced and the one that can cause me to shed tears in gratefulness. There is no greater gift then to be loved in return, our Lord as well looks at it the same way. The only thing we can give God is our love and to God there is no greater gift than that.

All for my beloved and all for the one I love. For we were made by "Love", in love, to be the loved, by "Love" itself. If that line is true and I believe it is how can we deny love or any form of love from God who is Love.